Save Me From Myself

Jesus thank you for saving me from myself. Lord Jesus when I was in the world, I had been called such things as crazy or mentally ill at worse for loving everyone. I just could not understand for the life of me why I was not supposed to love everybody. My family loved everybody. I was brought up in an environment where everybody thought that everybody was special "just because".

I went through all of the periods in history about hate but I could not fathom what was going on because I was never taught to hate. It does not mean that hate did not exist in the world, I just was not brought up in an environment where hate for anybody was a topic of conversation. I never heard any talk or speak about hate in my immediate or distant family.

I had to take a required course in college about a period of hate that took place in the United States. It was the hardest class I had to ever take. Harder than math which was really hard for me. I had to take the "hate" class twice, because I dropped out of it the first time. In that same class I wrote a paper about a hate issue in a foreign country and because I wrote the paper from a neutral point of view, did not take sides with the haters or the hatees, just presented facts as they were, I received a poor grade.

All I was concerned about was working by the sweat of my brow--well, at least when I became a productive adult. When I was in elementary, junior high and highschool I was indifferent. I did not join groups. I never cared about who did not like me or who did like me--and believe me there were a lot of haters. I loved everybody, I didn't have to know them. They were a human being. 

As a full-fledged adult, who accomplished things and stuff by the mercies and grace of God, I am still being labeled crazy or mentally ill. It is incredibly fascinating to me. Because I am not a joiner; the world, the spirit of the devil, lucifer, has mistakenly thought that a plan devised against me based on hate, isolation, manufactured intimidation, and trickery would work favorably for the dark forces that govern the world. But devil you were and are mistaken. I am a child of God who was chosen by God before the foundation of the world was laid. Before I was in my mother's womb God knew me. The Lord knows my beginnings and my endings.

The Lord saved me from myself. I will be forever grateful. Thank you Jesus.

If you believe in Jesus but have not given your life to Christ, accept Him into your heart today.  Christ Jesus, please come into my heart.  Lord Jesus become my personal Lord and Savior.